Satori
Twinkling Fairy Dust over Moonbeamed Dreams. Willows full of Whispers and Roots connecting all the Trees.
I hate you for changing me, for twisting my morals
I hate you for not loving me more
I hate you for scarring me
But most of all,
I hate myself for putting myself into this situation
I hate that you tried to drown my fire and I was still concern if you had enough to breathe
“Most of my nights have been dreamless. I never cared much before, but now when I go to sleep, I hope that I’ll see you. I awake the next morning hoping that this crooked reality we’re existing in right now is somehow just another nightmare. I always find out that I’m almost right. This is a nightmare indeed. The only difference is that this isn’t something we can wake up from.”
— Maxwell Diawuoh (via maxwelldpoetry)
“If I told you that you ruined us, I’d be lying. If I told you that I ruined us, I’d be lying, but I’d probably find some way to convince myself of that. The mind is amazing in that way. There’s so much power in a thought, so much power in words. I can’t speak mine out loud, so I’ll write them for you. I’ll spill this ink for you. Please forgive me if I don’t make sense. It’s hard to make sense when you don’t have the proper materials. You’re missing and there’s no replacement for such a gem. Please forgive me, I’m sadder than usual. Please forgive me, these tears, I can’t seem to stop them. Please forgive my heart, it doesn’t seem to know how to beat normally these days. In reality? We’ve been torn apart. In my head? In my heart? You’re still here. You’re still with me. There’s probably a part of you that blames yourself. Like many times before, this time isn’t your fault either. You’re far too bright to cause the darkness you think you have. You’ve called yourself the sun. Tonight, you’re my only star. We don’t see those in the sky above us, but that’s okay, your light is more than enough for me. I haven’t forgotten the laughter, I haven’t forgotten the smiles. I haven’t forgotten your heart. I wish I knew whether or not the future holds us. I wish I knew what happens next. I don’t have the answers, but one thing I know for sure is that you’ll always have me.”
— Maxwell Diawuoh (via maxwelldpoetry)
